The Views expressed by BMA Dillon are his and in no way associated with those of the author of this page.Thank You--Dan.
“I went to god just to see... and I was looking at ME”
Reverend Marilyn Manson
The following are my beliefs transcribed to paper. Nothing more, nothing less... It is my criticism, my faith, and my hopes It is how I feel about the Christian faith most specifically the Catholics. I really don’t care what you think... Because this is me...and what you think means nothing... 100%nothing because to me you are nothing if you believe in nothing and if you are what I speak of with dissent then you do believe in nothing and therefore are to me... nothing
BMA Dillon: BelIeve
BelIeve: A Religous Manifesto-by BMA Dillon
Dear Faithful Christian,
Who is god? Is he the superior being that created us all from dust and to that dust we shall return? Is he a false deity created for royal purposes by ancient kings. Or is he a legend, never true. Or is he within us all, not as a creator but as us. We are all our own gods. Power over ourselves is not secular to humans. Catholicism puts humans ahead of all other beings. Why? The only thing that separates us from them is an exceptional brain capacity. But can they not feel? Animals feel pain, they cry, they feel the same brain waves of joy and happiness that do all humans. We know that now. We know much now that was not known 2000 years ago. Because humans have grown and developed from when saying the word sex could cause a television show to be canceled, to now when avoiding sex on TV is a sign of prudence. And that was only a few decades. We have all adapted, but the bible never adapted. It never grew. The mortal who wrote the bible could not see a time when slavery was not acceptable, or a time when the term unclean was not attached to women who were pregnant or menstruating. Obviously this mortal was not as omniscient as his god. If this god was this all-seeing he would have seen a future when this passage would have been rejected. But he didn’t see it because he couldn’t. It is all about what we know now that “god” didn’t know. “god” was a good author. And now as a smarter, more intelligent people look at history and the bible they will see the ills of a masterfully written story called Catholicism. They will see it and they will destroy it. You see, it takes extreme intelligence to find the loopholes in such an amazingly, almost perfectly, written piece of literature. But you will see it in these pages. You will see throughout these pages that I will offer you many other solutions and possibilities to catholic ideologies. Because there are so many other possibilities that you cannot see with a closed mind, I will open your mind, and I will show you the evil in all that is known to be good. My goal in writing this is not to become the every Catholic’s enemy. It is to save the poor fools from wasting good time on earth by believing the shit of 2000 years of lies. I will not destroy Catholicism, we will do it together.
Let us start from the beginning. Of time that is. The first story of creation states that the earth was created in seven days. We now know it took somewhere around 4.5 billion years to do what took a week. Unless weeks back then where a bit less than a billion years long, this story holds no truth. 500 years ago, when Alexander IV was pope, Catholics were expected to believe the word of the bible to the letter. Catholics went along with that until some scientist proved this wrong. Then a pope somewhere said that Catholics should read the bible with caution because it contains allot of “symbolism”. My ass. They knew it then. They know it now. Adam and Eve...more symbolism? Not really. These two humans are supposed to symbolize the first two beings on earth. We know that humans descended from apes, but god says we were created in the image and likeness of him. Unless god is an ape, I think that’s a typo. You see our author could not have predicted such things. He is not god....or is he? And even still why should we face the sins of Adam and Eve. They ate the fruit. Not us. Not to mention I’ve never spoken to a serpent. What do they speak? Oops, my bad, that would be more of that symbolism.
Chapter five of the bible contains more of this symbolism. Noah’s ark. I am so sure this one man searched the globe for every species of life when we today have yet to find every species of life. But he must have done it if these life forms still exist. By the way...how big was this ark? Chapter 19. Sodom and Gommorrah. A village of sodomy and homosexuality. according to the bible the lord “rained down sulphurous fire upon Sodom and Gommorrah...overthrew these cities...their inhabitants”(Gen 19:24-26). “God” did not like homosexuals. In Leviticus19:22, it states that lying with another male is considered “an abomination”. “God” really dosen’t like homosexuals. You can say that he just hates the sin not the sinners, but he did destroy an entire two cities of homosexuals. Most humans who do not love all people as god is said to do, could not kill one man, much less two cities of them. But god had the anger, the hate to do it. Another little tidbit found in genisis. We know that people who lived this long ago lived not often to see the age of 40. But people such as Lamech, the father of Noah, lived to be 777, he had Noah at 595. Noah had his son Shem at 500.(gen 5: 30-32) To the leaders of the church this is symbolism. To me this is a sign that the author was writing a fictitious legend. Many such stories like the Odyssey and the Ramanyana told of people living past 500. Noah died at 950(gen 10:29). No one ever lived that long, especially not thousands of years ago without any medicine, and within such unsanitary conditions. On to Exodus.
One of the more interesting things about this book is the plagues. Flies, gnats, frogs, locusts and the rest of them. Whether true or not, the most complexing is the tenth plague. Throughout the bible, god speaks of his love for everyone. But if he truly loved all humans regardless of the sin, could he kill the firstborn of every house in Egypt. Well according to this, he did.(ex 12:29-30). Either way Moses went from their, to the red sea. Did you know that there is a part in the very northern most part of the Red Sea that is easily crossable. What do you think the people thought when Moses returned to this people and said “...and then we crossed the Red Sea...”. People must have had there own ideas. It was a simple exaggeration that grew over thousands of years. Let us not forget the ten commandments though. The problem with these laws are that their original meanings hold no truth today. The catholic church has taken the liberty of adding meanings and sub meanings to the “laws of god”. That takes balls in my opinion. The truth is, the leaders of the church realized that the commandments were outdated and did not cover everything else they were opposed to, so they stuck it all in textbooks and now teach it to America’s youth and youth everywhere else. For example, the sixth commandment states that though shall not commit adultery. But in 10th grade theology books it states that this commandment entails all of gods laws against sexuality including homosexuality, pornography, masturbation, incest, sodomy and many others. Another example is the seventh commandment ( though shall not steal), now in theology books, you are taught that stealing involves cheating, vandalism, and harming the environment. And under cheating, it lists cheating on taxes is wrong because you are taking what is not yours. Actually no. Governments are taking my hard earned money. It is mine, not theirs. And they are taking it from me. They call this a sin, so in general the church is saying that laws have influence over the christian faith. So tell me god, who’s the boss? So god’s original laws found in the bible no longer mean what they did mean because the figureheads of the catholic church have taken the liberty of amending them. If god is as all mighty as he is, shouldn’t the church leave his laws as they are written? I guess not.
Where Exodus truly gets interesting is when we get into social laws and slave laws. That’s right slave laws.(ex 21:1-11). According to “god” it was perfectly fine to hold and own slaves. This just after being released from slavery. I can almost taste the hypocrisy. If an evangelist were ever to come out today and say to people that having slaves was okay with god...he would be mocked, ridiculed, maybe even sued. But not at the time when the bible was written. Slaves were accepted as common practice then. Getting my drift? Other interesting laws included the line that says that “you shall not let a sorceress live (ex 22:17). In other words, god is calling for an almost holocaust of all sorceresses. Why? I haven’t the slightest idea. That however is ironic, because it was this passage that influenced the Sanhedrin, and allowed them to crucify Christ. Because one of the charges he was brought up on was...sorcery. But the laws god set out for his people are further described as we head deeper into the Pentateuch.
For the most part, the first ten chapters of Leviticus deal with sacrificial rituals, and how they should be practiced and what should be sacrificed. But the leaders of the church said that instead of goats and pigs, their god would be satisfied with a circular piece of bread and a swig of wine. But truly, is that enough? The worlds first murderer, Cain, was driven to his crime when god rejected his sacrifice of grain, and accepted the sacrifice of a lamb from his brother Abel. Cain then bludgeoned his brother to death in a field. Soon after, god banished Cain to the land of Nod. So, according to the bible god isn’t ok with today’s sacrifices. In fact he would probably like Cain’s harvest over today’s sacrfices from the Jews. Today they don’t make sacrifices. But Jews will say that killing goats and sheep are now illegal, so they cannot do such things. Once agian the question is risen, who’s the boss? So, in general the Jews, who these passages are directly aimed at, practice none of these rituals, for whatever reason. Maybe it is just that these rituals are outdated. But even so, should not Jews still follow god’s laws? Or maybe it is the fact that completing some of these rituals would, besides being illegal, now be considered satanic, and we know god wouldn’t want that. As you read further, the bible states that women are unclean for 33 days after the birth of a boy and 66 days for a girl(lev 12:1-8). Sexual discrimination, yes. God’s word, yes. People with diseases such as leprosy were as well considered unclean.(lev 13:3). The word unclean is used like the words “the” or “a” in this book. The Jews were pretty clean people for a time when soap was not exactly in existence yet. Women who were experiencing their menstrual flow were unclean for seven days.(lev 15:19). Then rules that make absolutely no sense come into play. Orthodox Hasidic jews get their earlocks and long beards from lev 19: 27. Why , does god not like long hair? The very next line condemns tattoos. What possibly could god have against tattoos. It has no health risks what so ever. But hey if he says so then lets make sure we are obedient. Also, does this mean that non-Hasidic Jews are sinners? Well people will say that Hasids are just fundamentalists. But, if you truly believe in your god, it would make sense to follow his word as if he spoke it to your face no? Not true in the world we now live in. In line35 god condemns lying about your weight. That is the most unintelligent thing I have ever heard in my life. God also condemns fortune tellers in line 31. Why? Is this god afraid of what might happen? What else is god and the church afraid of? Why was the bible not even openly available to the public in schools until the 1960’s? Perhaps because the leaders know that the young are naturally rebellious and could see the true ills of these scriptures. The ills that they know are there. And if you believe that god still loves homosexuals even though they commit their sins, then check out lev20:13. Here god says that if a man lies with another male then the people should “ put him to death”. God cares not about the homosexuals, he wishes they were all dead. Again we see that the author of the bible, whether a supreme being or a literary genius, cannot see the future or see a time when condemning homosexuals and suggesting the death of everyone of them is not exactly popular or considered kind and loving behavior. A little side note: I once asked a priest about that last passage. He replied that god “hates the sin but love the sinner” He may not hate homosexuals, but he does wish they were dead.
God also seems to have a problem with people with what he calls “irregularities” (lev21:1-24). In this passage, god says that people with handicaps such as blindness, lameness, crippled hands or feet, walleyedness, and ringworm may not come to the “lord’s alter” because he may “profane the sacredness of the alter.”. This might possibly be the most obvious evidence of falsity in the bible so far as we have gone over. You see, it seems here that god shares something with his people. A fear of the handicapped and a fear that such diseases like crippledness are contagious. That today is called ignorance because we know such things are 100% false. So god obviously did not know much about the humans he created from dust. He feared like his people of diseases that were not dangerous. Because simply he could not know about such truths because HE was a human.
God’s hate and unintelligence is proven again in Numbers. In chapter 5 in states a time when god told Moses to expel all lepers from camps(num5:1-4). This is almost like the situation in Africa with Rwandan refugees. This is also comparable with a prehistoric holocaust. God feared the diseased. Leprosy is a common phrase in these first books, because it was feared. By the people and by god.
As we head our catholic destruction tour into the land of Dueteronomy, we see more of god’s laws that today are just words on a page, ignored by everyone including the most religiously devoted Christians. We will also see other laws that are so ridiculous that it is almost amusing to think that a superior being could say such things. Among these rules which are funnier than they are holy is a rule on marriage to female prisoners of war. To do so, according to the bible, you must have her “shave her head and pare her nails”, She must also mourn her parents for a month before you can have sex or “relations” with her(dt 21: 12-13). Another interesting thing seen throughout these laws is the mention of situations where men have “two wives”. This is well after Moses brought the ten commandments down from Mount Sinai. According to number six, this is a direct disobeyment of god’s laws. But still it was practiced widely. God also states in dt21: 20-21 that if a man’s son is a glutton and a drunkard, he may stone his son to death. If these rules were upheld most Americans would be dead. Does this make god right. Should we all be stoned to death. No, because why should we not eat what we want? In what way will it harm god if I have donut? It won’t. It just won’t. It gets worse. In chapter 22 line 5 it condemns being a tomboy or being a transvestite. Once again, how will I harm god by wearing a dress. I wont. I just wont. It gets even more ridiculous. Line 11 of the same chapter defames wearing clothes of mixed cloth of “wool and linen”. Now that is just ludicrous. Was god tripping out or did he just never exist and our author had a little too much to drink one evening. It continues in chapter 23. It states that anyone “whose testicles have been crushed or whose penis has been cut off” will be excluded from the lord’s community(dt 23: 1) and if excluded from the community forever, eventually damned to hell. Going to hell for not having a penis. John Wayne Bobbit would have been quite screwed wouldn’t he? Two lines later it states that no child of an incestuous relationship will be admitted into the community of the lord. Tell me please almighty god...what has this child done by being born? You created him from dust and to dust he shall return because his parents were related. I’m just getting warmed up. Same chapter, lines 11-12. Here god says that if someone has nocturnal emission, a TOTALLY involuntary action, he must leave camp and not return till sunrise. Oh geese, sorry I jissed in my sleep. Now I’ll go cry in a corner of the woods for a day because you, the great creator, gave all humans the involuntary action of nocturnal emission. You claim to have made my lungs breath and my heart pump...both involuntary. But you had nothing to do with me cumming all over myself in my sleep. Was that a kink in the system or are you just holy sewage that I spit on. God goes on to describe exactly how we should bury our excretemnets. That’s right, the How to Bury Your Shit Guide by: god. Here’s another good one. Chapter 26 line 11-12. It says that when two men are fighting, if a wife of one man intervenes and “grabs the private parts” of the other man, you shall cut off her hand “without pity”. People, however refer to these and almost all other rules in the Old Testament( with the exception of the 10 Commandments) in an almost ignorant manner. They say that these rules were made for people of another time. They say god did not mean for these rules to be applied to the life of the modern person. But if you notice, god was almost a part of daily life in biblical time. He was always talking and conversing with various men in these times. But now, god is not a part of the times. He does not appear to us through famed and worshipped prophets. The thing is, if god wanted us to act differently and wanted us to think something about anything, he should come down and speak to us in person like he did thousands of years ago. Theologians will say that god speaks to us in our hearts. Awww how sweet , but that’s a load of crap. Give me a sign mother fuck. As the book of Dueteronomy comes to a close we see the death of Moses, at 120 years of age. That would put him in the put him in the Guinness Book of World Records...but not really... Noah holds the record at 950...duh!!!
I am going to skip right over a bunch of books because they are the stories of David, Joshua and others, all which I care not for. Let us go now to the Psalms. For those who think god does not hate. Please read into Psalm 11:5. In plain black and white it reads that god hates the lover of violence. There it reads GOD HATES...it says it right there for your holy eyes to read. God hates, he can, he will , he has, and he does.
Psalm 36 speaks of evil men. Why are they evil? They are evil because they do not do what is “right”. What is right to you may not be right to me. Because I am my own god. In psalm 37:2 god says that evildoers will wilt and wither like grass and green herbs. To Christians that is me. But I am not evil and I am not like grass. I am like the untended weed in your garden. You have left me alone, so I have grown to be your enemy. I will reproduce and consume and destroy you. And you will know its me because I will wear the scars you left me with, oh almighty father. Psalm 52 line 4. I am the razor that will slit your wrists. Bleed on me father. Or instead bleed from me. I am your open wound and I will show the world you secrets.
Out of the Old Testament we will expel ourselves. And into the new, testament that is. The gospels were obviously written by Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. But, like a court case, I will attempt to show the inconsistencies that, for whatever reason or not, are evident in the four tales of the life of Jesus Christ. First of all is the fact that the first of the gospels, Matthew, was written in 63 AD the same year as Mark’s gospel. Supposing he was somewhere around the age of Christ that would make him up in years to write such a story. And why did he wait to write the story. But yet it is possible to be 63 and write a gospel. But more unlikely would be the gospel of John. This book was written in or around 90 AD. Not many people at all came close to living that long 2,000 years ago, and it is quite rare even today with all of our medical and technical advances. I am suggesting that it is unlikely that John and the others had that great if any influence on the writings of the gospels. Therefore it is most probable that younger descendants wrote them from heresay, explaining the layoff from the death of Christ in 33AD to the completion of the gospels. There by starting what is called a rumor. And rumor’s spread. Most often they grow in extravagance. It can take only weeks for rumors to spread to the point where they are unbelievable. Now this sucker has had 2,000 years to grow and boil and fester to the point where it is now unbelievable. However, only to the most intelligent is it unbelievable. But because it is the story of a religious, omniscient god that is supposed to be amazing and unbelievable, it is accepted, however sad that is .
You can start with the Infancy Narratives of the gospel of Luke and Matthew. I know of many people who firmly believe that the passage in Matthew that refers to the sighting of the “flying” north star by the magi (mt 2:2) is actually a flying saucer. Why not??? Is it not possible. I am not trying to agree, I am only offering a solution. In another time in Matthew , Christ teaches that “if someone strikes you on your left cheek, offer him your right.”(mt 5: 38-41) You will not achieve peace through such a thing. Because people will not respect you, they will walk all over you and make slaves of you. But we already know that wouldn’t offend god. There are other interesting items in Matthew. There are references to a “true family of Jesus”(mt 13:46-50). Theologians say simply that the lines 48-49 state the true meaning of the passage... “Who is my true family...stretching his hands toward his disciples...these are my brothers and my sisters.”. But no matter what is said there, just one line earlier it states that someone said, and I quote " Your mother and brothers are standing outside, asking to speak with you”. Someone said that, someone referring to Jesus’s true family. Jesus however responds by ignoring them and calling his disciples his “true family”. And that is the end of the passage. Obviously Jesus had one or more siblings that are never again refereed to in the bible. Why are these people, kin to the son of god, ignored in the bible. Would they have marred the image of Christ, or are they simply not interesting enough to be included in the story of Christ. Among other things ignored by the bible, are a huge chunk of the life of Jesus. Did something happen in Jesus’s earlier years that would prevent the gospel writers from discussing those years, roughly 25 to 30 years of his life. Why did no one write this. There is no doubt in my mind that a Jesus Christ existed, there is historical proof. But how he lived his life cannot be proved. There are the dead-sea scrolls which suggest that Christ could have been a ruthless military leader. Then there are the cherished relics of the church that have been proven false. Among them one stands out. The Shroud of Turin was proved recently to be a painting, as the lines that shape the face of Christ were found to be a ocra color paint, not made till centuries after the death of Christ. As carbon dating would later prove. There also are so many incidents that can not have been written even close to exact. The agony in the garden. Jesus was alone, how could ANY of the four gospel writers have known Christ’s words. Don’t you think someone would have realized that a few years after it was written. Someone who would ask “How did you know that?”The fact that no one asked that from the start, to me is another sign that this was a story, written for fictual purposes. Perhaps an embellishment on a man that did exist. Whatever the case, the gospels contain too many inconsistencies and too many things that make little sense.
And what about Judas Iscariot? Yes, he betrayed Christ. And yes he was a major part of the death of Christ. Today the Catholic church still considers Judas as a trader and as an excommunicated person, or a non-member of the church. But if Judas did not commit such a sin then Christ would not have died, and as a result, opened the gates of heaven for all people. Or at least that is what all Catholics believe. But why then is this man who helped open the gates of heaven stricken from the church? Makes no sense to me. That is the point though, it makes no sense, like many other things we have seen in our endeavor.
Another item that distresses me, is that Jesus never addresses things of the Old Testament that we have found together to be insane. What is Jesus’s stand on slavery? I think we might all be suprised to know. I cannot guess however because I am not him. Remember though how acceptable slavery was at the time. But Jesus has had other times where his behavior has been questionable. In one passage in Luke, Jesus considers himself a great divider of the people (lk12: 49-53). He says “ I have come to set the world on fire...people think I have come for peace...but I say no...I have come for division between families” Why do we not hear such stories at mass? Because such things would upset the people. The Church is extremely good at hiding it’s secrets and it still remains so today.
In John chapter 16 lines 18-27, Jesus warns his disciples of the hatred and rejection his followers would endure. He says, “If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first”. Not that it holds any significance to my case besides Jesus’s common pessimism towards his own life. I am mostly trying to introduce John’s gospel. John’s gospel. the last of the written gospels, is the only one of the four that is not considered one of the synoptics, as are the other three. John portrays himself throughout his gospel as “the one Jesus loved” or “the beloved one”. It is almost like John was quite cocky about his relationship with Christ, even though Jesus does not show the same type of ,almost obsessive, love and affection for John as is displayed for him. John is one of the most complexing personalities of the bible. Jesus seems to care more for apostles like Peter, who he called the “rock”. Yet, still John is the only apostle at the cross. (jn 19:26) It is almost like an obsession of John’s. Not to mention the fact that John was most probably not alive for the completion of his gospel. I would not be suprised to hear that John’s gospel was written by friends who, not only were they not present for the events of Jesus’s life, but most probably wanted their gospel to seem the most accurate, by refering to John as the “beloved disciple”. I would also not be suprised if the gospels were in a sort of underground competition to see which one people like the most. John also wrote the final book of the bible, Revalations, an apocalyptic tale of the end and the new beginning of the world. This book is chock full of mind boggling passages which can actually be considered as REAL symbolism. But one interesting thing within Revalations is a description of Christ that can be interpreted as a description of an African-American. “ The hair of his...like wool...his feet were like polished brass.”(rv 2:14). That’s interesting considering the fact that Jesus is portrayed as a white male in every historical artform of Christ from his birth on. Even Malcolm X challenged the church with this passage. The church replied by saying simply that Jesus was a white male. Good Answer!!! Does someone up in that big palace in Rome have a problem with the black public??? Hmmmmmmm...that’s a good question.
And what about those people in the palace in Rome. Most specifically the pope. He is the successor to Christ, is he not? Should he be like Christ in all the ways the can be? Well if you ask me, I think he’s doing a pretty crappy job. According to the gospels, Jesus never had a security service with him at all times. Jesus had the opposite of that. He had friends who abandoned him at the foot of his cross. Nor did he have a bullet proof glass enclosed vehicle to transport himself wherever he wishes to go. Jesus told his followers to leave all their material possessions behind them and to “pick up their cross” and to follow him. The truth however is, whatever the pope wants in Vatican City, he can get.Because of this I offer the following:
Dear Pope John Paul II,
If you are so great, honest, holy, and truthful in your endeavors to follow in the footsteps of Christ, then take my challenge. For one day, walk the streets in nothing but the rags you wash your dishes with. Barefoot, without your common vestments, without security, and preach to your people. Show the true spirit of Christ, that you so enthusiastically represent. Remember your holiness, the lord will protect you.
It reminds me also of the corrupt past of the church. A past of usury, investiture, selling of the pardoning of sins, large taxes (or tithes), the fear of excommunication, and the riches, jewelry, and expensive vestments of the popes and archbishops of the past that would lead to the Protestant Reformation. All things the church would like to forget. Now the churches injustices have lessened ( as far as I know), but what of the injustices they commit against their own selves. The way they change the church, and take the liberty of re-interpreting scriptures to mean what they want.
You have probably been wondering throughout this, what I am trying to prove is true. As you probably know I am trying to disprove everything from the very bowels up of Christianity. But it is what I am trying to disprove that is what I am trying to prove. I feel that the bible is a epic poem of sorts. Like the Odyssey or the Iliad by Homer. Both based on true historical figures. But the stories themselves were over embellished. Like I stated earlier, no one even close to possibly could have lived nearly an entire millenium. It’s just not possible. Not to say that walking on water is possible, but theologians can say that jesus was god so he could do such things, but Noah, Moses, Lamech were all not godly they were all 100% human. The church refers to Christ however as the only “200 % person”. Either way, if you look at the stories, with an intelligent point of view or an open mind you will see their impossibility. If you read the stories as if they were , just that, a story, you will be quite interested and probably read the whole bible out of interest rather than monotonous obligation. But people will say that I am the one with the closed mind. But you see, a closed mind from a Christian point of view is a person who dosen’t believe the impossible. But a closed mind from a non-Christian is a person who is so hung up on his faith he will not open his mind to see the truth. The bible is an amazing tale of love, godliness, war, and heroism but the sad thing is, it should never have been taken as a religion. Eventually when the church realizes its faults, it’s greatest prediction will come true. The greatest upheavel of war and pain will occur. Between people who will try to hold on to their faith, but by that time, the only ones holding on to such falsities will be the old and closed minded, versus the open-minded youth. So the young will crush them. Before the lies of the church hold you down untill you die during the war that will end religious falsities, break free. From the lies, hipocrasy, pain and eventual death. When Catholics die, they believe they are going to heaven. But the truth is, they have wasted their lives doing things they really don’t want to do, just so they can go to heaven. But instead they rot in the ground after wasting good time on earth. Christ isn’t at the right hand of the father, he is the meals for maggots. Because he was 100% human and nothing more.
You can think what you want about me. But I have opened my eyes and seen the pain and the waste that Catholics have left on this earth. The scar that they have scorched this earth with. And the pointless death they hope you will leave this earth with. It was Aldous Huxley who once wrote, “ As flies to wanton boys are we to the gods; they kill us for their sport.”. It is not a physical “kill” I am speaking of. It is a phsycological kill. The way these gods, whether animate or inanimate, fill up our empty mortal bellies with lies and broken promises , than force us to purge ourselves like raging bulemics. We depend on this god and he lets us down, and in a sense, kill us. Who is god? It began page one as a question, but now it is an answer. Because the question itself can’t be answered. Because it takes to long to say the names of every person who ever live. We are our own gods, whether you believe it or not. My beliefs are simple. Be your own god, do what makes you happy, as long as you do not infringe on the happiness of others. Do what you feel is right. If you disagree with something then fight it. Fight it with everything you have. If you are a skilled writer then write your beliefs. If you can draw, create art that displays your beliefs. If you are a musician, pattern your life like Marilyn Manson does. Create music and have followers who believe your cause. Do not let the past dominate the future. What was right in the past is no longer affective. Resurrect yourself. Put yourself at a level beyond everyone else. You are god. Believe that. This is the first piece of Self-resurectionalist literature. I call it that because I have resurrected myself from a death and rose to a new life. The prefix “self” shows that I believe that I, and I alone resurrected myself, and that I am godly enough to do that. I hope only that others will follow this document and fight for what they believe. Self-resurectionalists do not only fight religion. We fight everything that we ,on our own, believe is wrong. Injustice is my enemy and my enemy is god. Who is your enemy? Remember the words that opened this document. “ I went to god just to see...and I was looking at me” Marilyn Manson had it right. Everyone who knows me, knows I am no huge Manson fan, but he was absolutely right. Believe in you because if you look at god in the eyes he will bow in shame, and behind his head is a mirror he has hid from you forever. Look and gaze at the truth. You are your own god. And when you realize your godliness you can capitalize that G because you are better than god...you are God.
Sincerely yours,
BMA Dillon